Thursday, March 25, 2010

Lo- The Stay at Home Mom


As Kaitlyn said below if you had told me that i would be where i am today ... i would laugh at you. Even if you would have told me two years ago. ... Actually even a little over a year ago. After having my son in 2005. (yes the year i was graduating) him an i went through ups and downs together. His father and i didn't work out and shortly after i met someone i thought was the one. He seemed sweet, calm, patient, and seemed like a great father figure for my son. I couldn't have been more wrong. This person turned out to be any mother worst nightmare. He was abusing my son and lying to me about it. It wasn't until my son was finally hurt bad enough for us to be investigated and my son taken away for over a year. This was the hardest chapter in my life. It seemed people who i thought were my friends turned their backs... other talked about rumors... and the only person i seemed to be able to rely on was my mother. (Who is by far the best friend i have ever had.) I found myself lost and felt as though there was nothing i could do... so i buried myself in my career. Because i channeled all of my energy into my job i found myself turning into a work-a-holic to say the least. I then reconnected with a wonderful man who we also grew up with. He stood by my side through what seemed like a constant uphill battle with my son and my job. At this time i was working 50 hour weeks, dealing with a child abuse case, custody battle, therapists, court clinicians and trying to maintain my sanity. In Dec. 2008 Almost two years after the incident, my son was returned to me. I was relieved. With everything going on having another baby was he last thing on my mind, but i found out in Feb. 2009 i was expecting. I had a hard time understanding all of the things my love wanted for our new baby (for example: a stay at home mom) But i vowed to give it a try. My daughter is now 6 months old and not only culd i not imagine life without her, but quitting my career and staying home has been one of the hardest yet most rewarding transitions i have ever made. I love it everyday ... I love staying home with my son and my daughter and i love my significant other for making it all possible. My life is amazing and i wouldn't trade it for the world. My children are my life and i love being able to focus on them and nothing else. Although i must say i have definitely gained a new respect for stay at home moms... ha ha to say the least ...


Love and Prayers


Lo

2 comments:

  1. Can't wait to read more posts by you lovely ladies. :)
    Adorable pictures/"about me"'s on the side. Love it!

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  2. p.s. I'm not a mommy, though someday I would love to be a wife and mommy. :) Dreams, dreams. :)
    But goodness, do I look forward to more of your writings! You all have beautiful families!

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